We discovered recently our dog Byron has some damage to his kidneys. It's unclear if it's from an infection and will heal, or if it's a precursor to kidney disease. Either way, it got me thinking that I can't handle not having a doggie friend around. Plus, Byron could use a bud. So I was led to another dog to take home, a rescue pup. All the signs were bringing me to him- a sticker on a car with his name on it while hiking after meeting him, and drawing the Empress tarot card (the all knowing Mother). We decided yes, let's bring him home.
But when we took him home, him and Byron weren't getting along like they had when they met before. Immediately I could tell the tension was too much, especially with our small children potentially getting in the middle. I sat with the dog outside my house, pet his small head, we gazed into each other's eyes, I saw his old soul. I felt like I could see my old dog, Liam, that passed in 2018, in his eyes. I could feel the adventures we'd been on together in my twenties in this dog. It was like a bit of Liam's soul, my spirit guide, was in him. With many tears I drove him back to his foster home. This dog was meant for me 10 years ago, but the timing just wasn't right now. I knew a spirit guide dog was meant for someone else that could give him all the devotion he needed, not a busy family where he could potentially be last in line. With a bit of a broken heart, I let him go. Now, I interpret the Empress card as stepping into your season as the Mother, and this means putting innocent souls that need our care first.
Our spirit guides are all around us. Sometimes they stay for a while, sometimes the visit is just a passing meeting. I'm grateful I got to remember the love of my first dog, and see he's not just still 'out there'. He's HERE. With me always. I designed this piece with the mushrooms to remember our ancestors and our spirit guides. Mushrooms offer insight into the visionary world of Spirits. When you put this on I hope you remember that death is another version of life. They are both dreams within the same consciousness. Blessed be, sister. xx Hayley